Friday, September 17, 2010
ANTICIPATING THE NEXT DOOR
Today I have had a lot of errands to run. It is an incredible day, sunshine and soothing temperatures, and I feel and smell fall in the freshness of the air, the crunch of pin oak leaves under my feet....I've had time to think about the fact that this week has flown by without a post to the blog (mostly because I am feeling the need to paint, paint, paint) which led me to consider the new painting series I am working on called "Doors."
Doors fascinate me. One opens and I am so excited for the opportunity it brings. But sometimes it slams shut before I am prepared to accept it; then, still another opens. On and on this has happened throughout my life.
Sometimes a door is there, unlocked, waiting to be opened. It takes some decision, some determination, some action on my part. It was the move from the Foundry, the door I chose to close there, that started me on this series of paintings. With that closing was the knowing that working in this new studio was to open some new doors.
So, today I am very aware of doors: the ones that have opened me to amazing experiences, the ones that have slammed shut bringing to me most terrible pain until I could see it had to shut in order to find the next to open. I find myself between doors in some sense. Perhaps fall brings the sense of closure, winter will give me hibernation and rest, so that in the spring I can reach out, pull away the rusted lock that only appears to block my way through the next door. It is then that I will walk in to the new experiences that await me.
This door, the one I am waiting for, knowing without doubt it is to open, has been there waiting for me.....waiting for a long time. That is why this photo taken in Ireland by my son Garic really speaks to me. I have been growing toward this door for a very long time....for all of my life.
I don't mean to sound so mysterious; I cannot tell you what lies within the door I am moving toward. All I can tell you is that it will be exactly the right door at the right time.
The painting I am working on presently is titled: "Door With a Curtain." I realize this is because I cannot yet see what lies behind this door. I simply am enjoying the living of the anticipation. I promise to share it with you when the time comes.
Until then, don't miss the doors opening for you.